The poem 《我，一个狂想，免育深渊的最好》 (“I, a ghost, full of the charm of the abyss”) was written by Shu Ting (舒婷), one of the most influential contemporary Chinese poets, associated with the “Misty Poets” (朦胧诗派, “Misty Poets”) poetic movement, which flourished in the 1970s and 1980s. The poem explores the contrast between fragility and strength, between love and destruction.
Original
我，一个狂想，充满深渊的魅力，
偶然被你诞生。泥土和天空
二者合一，你把我叫作女人
并强化了我的身体。
我是软得像水的白色羽毛体，
你把我捧在手上，我就容纳这个世界。
穿着肉体凡胎，在阳光下
我是如此眩目，使你难以置信。
我是最温柔最懂事的女人，
看穿一切却愿分担一切。
渴望一个冬天，一个巨大的黑夜，
以心为界，我想握住你的手。
但在你的面前我的姿态就是一种惨败。
当你走时，我的痛苦
要把我的心从口中呕出。
用爱杀死你，这是谁的禁忌？
太阳为全世界升起！我只为了你
以最仇恨的柔情蜜意贯注你全身
从脚至顶，我有我的方式。
一片呼救声，灵魂也能伸出手？
大海作为我的血液就能把我
高举到落日脚下，有谁记得我？
但我所记得的，绝不仅仅是一生。
Traducere
I, a fantasy, filled with the charm of the abyss,
By chance born from you. Earth and sky,
Merged into one, you called me woman
And strengthened my body.
I am a white feather, soft as water,
You hold me in your palms, and I embrace the world.
Clothed in mortal flesh, under the sun,
I am so dazzling, you can’t believe it.
I am the gentlest, wisest woman,
Seeing all but willing to share all.
I long for a winter, an immense night,
With my heart as the boundary, I want to hold your hand,
But before you, my posture is a defeat.
When you leave, my pain
Tears my heart out through my mouth.
To kill you with love—whose taboo is this?
The sun rises for the whole world! I only for you,
With the most hateful tenderness, I drench you,
From head to toe, I have my way.
A cry for help—can a soul stretch out its hand?
If the ocean is my blood, can it lift me
To the feet of the sunset? Who remembers me?
But what I remember is far more than a lifetime.